Clinic testimonials

After every My Body Back Clinic, our founder, Pavan Amara, personally sends a message to every patient to see how they’re doing after their visit. These are just a handful of the many wonderful replies we get every month from these extraordinarily courageous women.


I feel like you’ve really helped me to turn a corner.

Thank you all so much for your support on Thursday – it meant more than I can even say. I feel like you’ve really helped me to turn a corner.

I couldn’t be more grateful for what you and your team have done for me and continue to do for others. You’re a real inspiration.


I’m so glad there is now somewhere I can go where I know it’s safe

It has been a long time since I’ve been able to confirm having this procedure was a positive experience. I’m so glad there is now somewhere I can go where I know it’s safe and I will not have to endure a traumatic experience until self testing is available.

I just wanted to say a big thank you to all your team. I think what you do is very important and invaluable to so many people.

All the best and see you maybe in 3 years!


You all made me believe I can get through this

Thank you so much for being so kind and thoughtful today. Although I was incredibly nervous everyone’s patience and willingness to just talk me through things was incredibly helpful. I didn’t realise quite how hard I would find it, but you all made it way better than it could have been. And you make a good cup of tea!

Although I feel wiped out this afternoon, you all made me believe I can get through this.


I can breathe for the first time since being attacked six years ago.

Thank you for the message, I’m doing well, thank you. My STI tests all came back negative, which is a relief! I can breathe for the first time since being attacked six years ago.

If only I could explain how much this peace of mind means to me. I didn’t think I’d ever be able to go ahead with it but I did thanks to you and this amazing service.


I feel I can finally move on with my life now

Thank you for all being so patient and kind to me. I was beginning to feel very, very anxious, tearful and sick. But thanks to you I managed to stay calm and go ahead. My STI result is negative. What a weight off my shoulders. I cannot believe I managed to have the smear too. I went home and was so overcome I started crying with relief.

I thank my lucky stars I got an appointment. My only wish is that you had been around before because it would have saved me years of anguish. What an extraordinary thing you did for me. I cannot thank you enough. I feel I can finally move on with my life now.

 


Going to your clinic on Thursday changed my life.

My mother died of ovarian cancer when I was 12 and the year after I was raped. My doctor told me that if I didn’t have a successful smear he would take me off his list otherwise it would appear as negligence on his part. He then struck me off his list for not having a smear test. This meant that I had no GP to go to at all because I was not having a smear.

I couldn’t have one, it’s not because I didn’t try. I tried really hard for a whole decade to have one and I gave up. I cannot tell you the trauma this has put me through. Before Thursday I had seven horrible attempts in three cities. Once they put me under aesthetic to have it done but I still couldn’t. I felt like a failure and I blamed myself. I thought if I hadn’t let myself be raped I would be normal and I would be able to do it.

I heard about this clinic on the radio and didn’t think I’d be able to do it but feel like it has changed my life. I still don’t know what my result is going to be but I will know now if I am a cancer risk, thank god. Thank god. They will be able to catch it at least and I will have longer than mum. The MBB staff told me it is more likely to be negative but if it is positive they will support me and at least they will have caught it early enough to stop it in its tracks.

If the result is negative this clinic has given me peace of mind for at least three years before my next test and I can now register with a GP again at last and go to the doctor like a normal woman. If it is positive at least I can have the wrong cells removed because they will know they are there. I thank all the staff at MBB clinic.

I spent all of Thursday crying. But not out of sadness but elation. I want to give my biggest thanks to this project. You have changed my life. Thank you for the kindness. I started crying during my appointment with Pavan at the clinic and I think she thought I was very nervous. I was crying because no one had ever been that kind to me before. I didn’t know what to do or say thanks.

Yes it was painful like all smears. But it wasn’t pain I was afraid of. I was treated like a human. I was afraid of being treated like a rag doll again and that’s why I could never do it. I was afraid of being invaded or that it would all be out of my control again. I wasn’t and for that I am grateful. I think this is the first time I have ever walked out of a hospital crying with happiness rather than hating myself.


It was a completely different experience

Thanks for today, thanks to all of you for making me feel so safe!

I am feeling good and really happy about my experience today. It was a completely different experience to the birth and all the other tests I’ve ever had. Although some memories of my past and rough times on the streets did come back after I left today, it is nothing like how I expected to feel.

To be honest, I am coping so well compared to what I thought I’d feel like. Thanks again!


If my only option was to have a smear test at my GP’s or die, I would have chosen to die every time.

Just wanted to say thank you to all of you that saw me on Thursday. I experienced a huge range of mixed emotions before arriving and during my appointment, but not once did I feel unsafe or not in control of what was happening. Prior to coming to MBB I felt that if my only option was to have had a smear test at my GP’s or die, I would have chosen to die every time.

I am incredibly grateful for what you have created, an environment where I didn’t have to explain, but was understood, where I felt looked after without feeling suffocated and where I felt normal and unashamed.

Although it was only a few hours out of my life, it was huge for me. I was able to do something that had been completely unachievable and beyond my reach prior to last Thursday, and it finally means that the 30 or so letters I’ve received over the last 8 years reminding me to have a smear test will stop for a while.

I am beyond thankful for your existence.

Good luck with My Body Back, it really is so important.


You kept me together and I felt stronger

Thank you so much for such a warm welcome yesterday.

I have to say I was very apprehensive and nervous when I first arrived. You answered all of my questions and gave me so much time and attention. When I became emotional I thought I would break down but you kept me together and I felt stronger.

Many thanks again for all of your assistance. My morning with you made me feel like an individual with individual needs and that those needs are very important. It changed things for me. Thanks again.


It’s been enlightening and life changing.

I just wanted to say thank you for everything you’ve done for me this year – you might remember me from clinic. I was the one who cried as soon as I arrived and then didn’t want to leave!

I’m heading back to Australia at the beginning of December and I hope I’ll find a similar service. Before I go, I wanted to write to you to tell you what a big difference you made to my life. I may be another patient to you, but to me you guys are angels in human form. I’ll think of you, and what wonderful people I was lucky enough to meet in England. Thank you for everything – it’s been enlightening and life changing.


Today, I feel lighter

This morning you and the team really helped me to manage to do something momentous. To be able to turn up for and go through with a smear test when I have booked and cancelled dozens of times in the last 20 years is something that was beyond my imagination. I have been relieved of a worry that sits either in the back or the front of my mind. So today I feel lighter.

You also encouraged me to register with a GP, so I am now on a GP list for the first time in ages.
It was tough but the people with me knew how much I wanted to manage it so they supported me to try again – which was just amazing.

You are all so insightful and generous with your care, your time, your understanding and your Maltesers!

Just thank you!